for October, 2010

words unfolding


There is something wonderful that happens with the surrounding energy resulting from the repetition of words sung by a collective group.

I feel I’ve been shown small windows into the practice and reasoning for chanting and praying aloud in mass.

I want to experience more of this.

Tonight’s lesson was being a participant in the K’Naan concert.

Posted on October 31, 2010 by Keli · 0 comments Read More
words unfolding

Starts with Me

My journey has me always returning to the exploration of my spiritual self. I soon become fascinated by all that I realize is happening around me. Coincidences or what I’ll call synchronicity flood my senses and remind me that I’m in the right path.

This time feels the same in some ways and different in others. It started with wanting to really know how I feel and what I want. I was recognizing that I didn’t really understand myself as well as I wanted to. That connection with people was lacking.

I found the courage to face that all things have to start with me. What I mean is if I want to be honest and truthful and open with others I have to learn how to do this with myself. If I want to know and show pure love, I have to love me first. I resisted this as it felt selfish and I have judgments surrounding this. I think of narcissism and wanted to run the other direction.

I’ve always believed that the teacher will come when the student is ready and this is my time. I have lots of teachers and ironically I’m also one of my own.

I have a wonderful therapist who not only gets to the root of the stories I play over and over in my head that often lead to false core beliefs, but knows how to teach me to tap into my higher-selve to find my truths.

I am practicing self-love through turning negative thoughts into positive ones. I want to be compassionate and kind and I’m starting with me. I am hard on myself and impatient. I want to be fixed now. I’m learning I’m not broken. I am enough right now. There is no perfect, just a journey of growth. 

I show kindness to myself  by ‘faking it till I make it.’ Meaning I repeat things I am that I don’t necessarily believe wholly. It is working, slowly I believe. I am becoming more self-aware everyday. I’m finding my inner voice by sitting still and asking it questions. Hypnotherapy has been a valuable tool in helping me learn this skill.

I am having a beautiful awakening and the flood gates have opened. I am welcoming all that is coming to me, painful and joyful. I’m practicing acceptance of what exists so that I may move forward with clear focus and understanding.

I am starting to know my true power and this sets me free. I am on my path to know and live Love. A path given to me during the mourning of my best friend’s passing.

I am connecting with me, and as I am, I’m having real connections with others. I’m grateful for the light that I am and for the lighted path I am on.

Posted on October 30, 2010 by Keli · 0 comments Read More